"Finding yourself" has become a cliché, but many of us truly do feel lost at some point in our lives. It makes sense that as we grow and change, we experience a sense of loss for the people we used to be.
The story of In Search of Lucy came to me at a time when I felt the need to "find" myself again. The Big Four Oh! was creeping up on me, and I was on my third career change. I’d given up working in public relations to get my teaching credential. Just as I completed the program, schools in my area began cutbacks, so I fell into substitute teaching. Each time I headed to a new school to take the place of someone else, I’d hear the same question from teachers and staff: Who are you today? I began to wonder about that myself.
Years earlier, before having my two children, I’d tried my hand at writing screenplays. Then the babies came along, and I set those projects aside—until I realized that my new flexible schedule was perfect for jumping back into the writing game.
Revolving the story around a young woman who felt lost seemed fitting, given my circumstances. But I wanted to take it even further. What if this woman felt so lost that she didn’t want to go on? Maybe she was even desperate enough to end it all. But what if she couldn’t make that choice for herself? This is where we enter Lucy’s life. Living alone, betrayed by her family, she is closed off emotionally to those around her. Then she finds out she is the only match for a kidney that will save her sister’s life. Love and devotion battle with bitterness and betrayal as Lucy journeys to reunite with her sister, determined to help her. I found it fascinating to create someone who was caring and giving but, because of her destructive past, also came off as cold and cynical. I believe readers will see through Lucy’s pain and experience a connection with her, just as I did.
In my journey to find In Search of Lucy, I also found myself—and a new beginning as an author. I haven’t stopped writing since. I recently completed a mystery series called A Hint of Murder and have two other books in progress: a thriller and a romantic comedy. But with all those different genres, I guess you could say I haven’t completely found myself yet.